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2026-08-03

I think atleast 5% of men want to be rapists because my past self can relate to them

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I am deliberately writing taboo things because why the hell not. I have come this far, might as well write the remaining stuff.

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I wrote elsewhere that I think atleast 5% of men want to be rapists, and the threat of going to prison is the only thing stopping them.
I think part of the reason I believe that is that my past self from teeange can actually relate to them.
I will write something here, I hope it is not too deanonymising:
- I definitely had multiple experiences in middle school of people cheating on various tests by asking me for the answers.
- I did at some point consider asking people for things like showing me their boobs in return for the answers.
- Is it technically possible for someone in my shoes to have made some version of this work, yes. Would I have been able to make it work, absolutely not, my social skills were terrible and I would have only gotten myself into even more trouble. So yes, I'm glad I didn't ask for stuff like this.
I definitely spent non-zero amount of time in teenage thinking what it would be like to rape someone, if I lived in a world where there were no legal checks against it. And I don't remember very well what my conclusion was because mostly the conclusion was something like, I don't care that strongly either way, I do have mild preference for it not to happen, and something.

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As an adult who has actually had sex (lol), my opinion has become a lot more like, absolutely nothing about raping someone sounds fun to me. Approximately 75% of the fun of having sex for me is knowing that the other person is into it too.
As a teenager and a virgin, I didn't realise this fact, because I lacked experience.
(I want to write some stuff about paying someone for sex, but like, sex work is illegal in India so I don't think I am allowed to talk about it publicly.)
Honestly, for most people, I don't see what raping someone satisfies, that you cannot otherwise satisfy by paying a sex worker. My guess is the primary thing it would satisfy is if you get off specifically on making this person suffer, or dominating them, or similar.
I personally don't get pleasure out of making people suffer, so I cannot relate to this drive. My default is to distance from people and switch off my empathy for them. "I don't care if you live or die"-type of sentiment. Wanting someone to suffer means you still care about the outcome, and I very instinctively am like, that is stupid, I cannot relate to that.
See also: Kim Jong Un's sex slaves

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