2026-06-16

# About me (Personal) - page 2

## Disclaimer

 - **target audience (page 2) - strictly myself.** I may or may not be open to discussing stuff here even with friends. I might not discuss stuff here with strangers.
 - See also: [I don't discuss my personal life with strangers](./main/I_dont_discuss_my_personal_life_with_strangers.md)
 - See also: [I write about my issues because solved things are not worth writing about](./main/I_write_about_my_issues_because_solved_things_are_not_worth_writing_about.md)

## [Link to page 1 whose target audience is friends](./about_me_personal.md)

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## Index

### 2026-06

 - uncategorised
   - [Combine your alphas](./main/combine_your_alphas.md)
   - [Create an egregore to shift a technological offence-defence balance](./main/create_an_egregore_to_shift_a_technological_offence_defence_balance.md)
   - ["Just help everyone you meet" is good networking advice but maybe bad civilisation-building advice](./main/just_help_everyone_you_meet_is_good_networking_advice_but_maybe_bad_civilisation_building_advice.md)
   - [I don't feel averse to looking at twitter](./main/I_dont_feel_averse_to_looking_at_twitter.md)
   - [**I need clear risk opt-ins for people around me**](./main/I_need_clear_risk_optins_for_people_around_me.md) - Important
   - [Do I need an ingroup to feel safe?](./main/do_I_need_an_ingroup_to_feel_safe.md)
   - [Side project to delegate to codex later, maybe never - Improve the UX of cypherpunks mailing list - good for maintaining motivation](./main/side_project_to_delegate_to_codex_later_maybe_never_improve_the_ux_of_cypherpunks_mailing_list_good_for_maintaining_my_motivation.md)
   - [You can joke about violence too, actually](./main/you_can_joke_about_violence_too_actually.md)
   - [Your inaction is going to get me killed, and if you understand how important this is to me, we can still agree to disagree](./main/your_inaction_is_going_to_get_me_killed_and_if_you_understand_how_important_this_is_to_me_we_can_still_agree_to_disagree.md)
   - [**Me having fun might scare my enemies more, actually**](./main/me_having_fun_might_scare_my_enemies_more_actually.md) - important
   - [The Gates to Hades are the terrace of my building - part 2](./main/the_gates_to_hades_are_the_terrace_of_my_building_part_two.md)
   - [Laughed so much it hurt, at this comment on supply chain attacks](./main/laughed_so_much_it_hurt_at_this_comment_on_supply_chain_attacks.md)
   - ["My time is constrained" and "I am underconfident in my ability to manage social interactions well"](./main/my_time_is_constrained_and_I_am_underconfident_in_my_ability_to_manage_social_interactions_well.md)
 - uncategorised 2
   - [I liked an event I attended today](./main/I_liked_an_event_I_attended_today.md)
   - [Looking at my happy notes made me happy](./main/looking_at_my_happy_notes_made_me_happy.md)
   - [Titanic is one of the most beautiful movies ever](./main/titanic_is_one_of_the_most_beautiful_movies_ever.md)
   - [I am fucking excited lol. Also, networking is hits-based, not rules-based](./main/I_am_fucking_excited_lol_also_networking_is_hits_based_not_rules_based.md)
   - [Networking is easy if you're a kissass](./main/networking_is_easy_if_youre_a_kissass.md)
   - [I'm an Agent of Chaos vortexing Reality under my own gravity](./main/Im_an_agent_of_chaos_vortexing_reality_under_my_own_gravity.md)
   - [I need very few people to like me](./main/I_need_very_few_people_to_like_me.md)
   - [Have I been conditioned by childhood to not have fun?](./main/have_I_been_conditioned_by_childhood_to_not_have_fun.md)
   - ["Fight like a demon" quotes found by AI](./main/fight_like_a_demon_quotes_found_by_ai.md)
   - [I miss some people from college](./main/I_miss_some_people_from_college.md)
 - uncategorised 3
   - [I like Pingu cartoon from childhood](./main/I_like_pingu_cartoon_from_childhood.md)
   - [Listening to women's problems makes me feel alive](./main/listening_to_womens_problems_makes_me_feel_alive.md)
   - [Which conversations do I actually seem to enjoy?](./main/which_conversations_do_I_actually_seem_to_enjoy.md)
 - dating
   - [Lol maybe I should make two hinge profiles](./main/lol_maybe_I_should_make_two_hinge_profiles.md) - do not
   - [Dating has bad feedback loops and is personalised](./main/dating_has_bad_feedback_loops_and_is_personalised.md)
   - [I like cute but intelligent women](./main/I_like_cute_but_intelligent_women.md)
   - [I should probably compile a dating master post at some point](./main/I_should_probably_compile_a_dating_master_post_at_some_point.md)
   - [Dating, and my outlier traits](./main/dating_and_my_outlier_traits.md)
   - [**Dating master post compiled using AI**](./main/dating_master_post_compiled_using_ai.md) - maybe important, if only as a natural end to this topic
 - lifestyle
   - [Maybe I should have started lifting weights sooner](./main/maybe_I_should_have_started_lifting_weights_sooner.md)
   - [Consider meeting people atleast two days a week](./main/consider_meeting_people_atleast_two_days_a_week.md) - maybe important
   


### 2026-05

 - politically sensitive
   - [Have I made a terrible mistake by assuming I should stay back in India?](./main/have_I_made_a_terrible_mistake_by_assuming_I_should_stay_back_in_india.md)
 - uncategorised
   - [The Gates of Hades are the terrace of my building](./main/the_gates_of_hades_are_the_terrace_of_my_building.md)
   - [Some towns people are beautiful](./main/some_towns_people_are_beautiful.md)
   - [The terror of being wrong, and gambling your self-esteem](./main/the_terror_of_being_wrong_and_gambling_your_self_esteem.md)
   - [Dance class, how to sync private and public notes](./main/dance_class_how_to_sync_private_and_public_notes.md)
   - [Recent cute things in my life](./main/recent_cute_things_in_my_life.md)
   - [**There will be no forgiveness**](./main/there_will_be_no_forgiveness.md) - important
   - [Solve 100 lion 100 zebra problem](./main/solve_100_lion_100_zebra_problem.md)
   - [On forgiving people who haven't asked for your apology](./main/on_forgiving_people_who_havent_asked_for_your_apology.md)
   - [Competence ceilings are very high](./main/competence_ceilings_are_very_high.md)
   - [Visakanv says humour is about a balanced amount of meaning?](./main/visakanv_says_humour_is_about_a_balanced_amount_of_meaning.md)
   - [I don't feel safe around people who aren't capable of violence](./main/I_dont_feel_safe_around_people_who_arent_capable_of_violence.md)
   - [Don't mistake social malaise for guilt, and where are the curious violent people?](./main/dont_mistake_social_malaise_for_guilt_and_where_are_the_curious_violent_people.md)
   - ["In a utopia, I care about X. In the real world, I throw X under the bus."](./main/in_a_utopia_I_care_about_x_in_the_real_world_I_throw_x_under_the_bus.md)
   - [Why is my mind addicted to inventing new persuasion strategies?](./main/why_is_my_mind_addicted_to_inventing_new_persuasion_strategies.md)
   - [My anger is extremely normie, my violence is maybe not](./main/my_anger_is_extremely_normie_my_violence_is_maybe_not.md)
   - [Love, death and robots](./main/love_death_and_robots.md) - maybe important idk
   - [Worshipping a different God](./main/worshipping_a_different_god.md)
   - [The baseline strategy is always door-to-door persuasion](./main/baseline_strategy_is_always_door_to_door_persuasion.md)
 - interpersonal
   - [Isolation, and curiosity about people](./main/isolation_and_curiosity_about_people.md)
   - [I need a scheduled block of time to run dating surveys](./main/I_need_a_scheduled_block_of_time_to_run_dating_surveys.md)
   - [**Why do I even want a relationship, besides having sex?**](./main/why_do_I_even_want_a_relationship_besides_having_sex.md) - important, especially the last section
   - [I don't hate women, I hate society](./main/I_dont_hate_women_I_hate_society.md)
   - [**Made list of meetups of people with life missions**](./main/made_list_of_meetups_of_people_with_life_missions.md) - important
   - [I am fairly high on protectiveness, for a potential partner](./main/I_am_fairly_high_on_protectiveness_for_a_potential_partner.md)
   - [Wait, I am actually jealous of some people I know](./main/wait_I_am_actually_jealous_of_some_people_I_know.md)
   - [Women's stated dating preferences are so dumb](./main/womens_stated_dating_preferences_are_so_dumb.md)
   - [I understand truths about human nature that I don't know how to transmit](./main/I_understand_truths_about_human_nature_that_I_dont_know_how_to_transmit.md)
   - [Maybe the solution to dating across political differences is to meet less often](./main/maybe_the_solution_to_dating_across_political_differences_is_to_meet_less_often.md) - might be important idk
   - [Dating and political extremes, and I am willing to die over ASI risk](./main/dating_and_political_extremes_and_I_am_willing_to_die_over_asi_risk.md)
   - ["Safe tech progress" is more timeless than ASI risk](./main/safe_tech_progress_is_more_timeless_than_asi_risk.md)
   - [Maybe I am better at dating people who are more present-focussed, and dating epsilon-shifted clones](./main/maybe_I_am_better_at_dating_people_who_are_more_present_focussed.md)
   - [What does female-coded ambition look like?](./main/what_does_female_coded_ambition_look_like.md)
   - [Isolating myself increases neuroticism which degrades my thinking](./main/isolating_myself_increases_neuroticism_which_degrades_my_thinking.md) - might be important idk
   - ["Actually agree" versus "agree to disagree yet accept" versus "do not accept"](./main/actually_agree_versus_agree_to_disagree_yet_accept_versus_do_not_accept.md) - might be important idk. considering categorising people as type-1 versus type-2 versus type-3
   - [Always talk to someone before making an important decision?](./main/always_talk_to_someone_before_making_an_important_decision.md)
 - lifestyle
   - [My room sucks](./main/my_room_sucks.md)
   - [I still haven't fully fixed sunlight or exercise](./main/I_still_havent_fully_fixed_sunlight_or_exercise.md)

### 2026-04, russia trip

 - interpersonal
   - [**I will not be meeting my friends for the next three months**](./main/I_will_not_be_meeting_my_friends_for_the_next_three_months.md)
   - [I am optimistic about technology and cynical about human nature](./main/I_am_optimistic_about_technology_and_cynical_about_human_nature.md)
   - [Marriage and shared preference orders](./main/marriage_and_shared_preference_orders.md)
   - [Bridge between worlds of violent and non-violent people](./main/bridge_between_worlds_of_violent_and_nonviolent_people.md)
   - [I am dreading going back to India because I am bored of people there](./main/I_am_dreading_going_back_to_india_because_I_am_bored_of_people_there.md)
   - [I am not fun or high status](./main/I_am_not_fun_or_high_status.md)
   - [Why am I so mad at the world?](./main/why_am_I_so_mad_at_the_world.md)
 - lifestyle
   - [Miscellaneous notes from visiting beach](./main/miscellaneous_notes_from_visiting_beach.md)
   - [Maybe my ideal place to live should have a beach or a mountain](./main/maybe_my_ideal_place_to_live_should_have_beach_or_mountain.md)

### 2026-02/03

 - Most important
   - [**Learnings from past month of reading about politics**](./main/learnings_from_past_month_of_reading_about_politics.md)
   - [**Stay with a sober roommate**](./main/stay_with_a_sober_roommate.md)
   - [**I want to become more violent with time**](./main/I_want_to_become_more_violent_with_time.md)
 - Lifestyle
   - [Fucking hate coworking spaces](./main/fucking_hate_coworking_spaces.md)
   - [Light](./main/light.md)
   - [Heavy exercise](./main/heavy_exercise.md)
   - [Spend less time on Nitter](./main/spend_less_time_on_nitter.md)
 - Uncategorised
   - [Posts written to friends versus to myself](./main/posts_written_to_friends_versus_to_myself.md)
   - [Why do humans have sex in private?](./main/why_do_humans_have_sex_in_private.md)
   - [I am happy today](./main/I_am_happy_today.md)
   - [Withholding sex might not be an effective persuasion strategy](./main/withholding_sex_might_not_be_an_effective_persuasion_strategy.md)
   - [Morality of persuading vulnerable people](./main/morality_of_persuading_vulnerable_people.md)
   - [Principles should be symmetric](./main/principles_should_be_symmetric.md)
   - [People with moral convictions don't regret political violence](./main/people_with_moral_convictions_dont_regret_political_violence.md)
   - [I pray to the God of error correction](./main/I_pray_to_the_god_of_error_correction.md)
   - [What kind of retarded fucking civilisation have I been born into?](./main/what_kind_of_retarded_fucking_civilisation_have_I_been_born_into.md)
   - [Mount Everest will be destroyed (?)](./main/mount_everest_will_be_destroyed.md)
   - [The core of my morality around ASI risk is very simple](./main/core_of_my_morality_around_asi_risk_is_very_simple.md)
   - [I seem to process everything first intellectually then emotionally](./main/I_seem_to_process_everything_first_intellectually_then_emotionally.md)
   - [Prestige among the ingroup, dominance on the outgroup](./main/prestige_among_the_ingroup_dominance_on_the_outgroup.md)
   - [The only plan more ambitious than mine, that I believe in](./main/the_only_plan_more_ambitious_than_mine_that_I_believe_in.md)
   - [I am surprisingly immune to murder footage](./main/I_am_surprisingly_immune_to_murder_footage.md)
   - [I have wasted a year of my life arguing on the internet](./main/I_have_wasted_a_year_of_my_life_arguing_on_the_internet.md)
   - [There will be trials](./main/there_will_be_trials.md)
   - [Maybe I am not the type of person to shame others?](./main/maybe_I_am_not_the_type_of_person_to_shame_others.md)
   - [Naval Ravikant on political transparency](./main/naval_ravikant_on_political_transparency.md)
   - [Thoughts on Carlson Bukele interview](./main/thoughts_on_carlson_bukele_interview.md)
   - [Levels of belief in democracy](./main/levels_of_belief_in_democracy.md)
   - [Receiving help to build anti-ASI movement](./main/receiving_help_to_build_anti_asi_movement.md)
   - [Unprincipled stances lead to reverse polarisation](./main/unprincipled_stances_lead_to_reverse_polarisation.md)
   - [Why world government?](./main/why_world_government.md)
   - [Multiple conflicting beliefs about privacy/transparency I hold at the same time](./main/multiple_conflicting_beliefs_about_privacy_transparency_I_hold_at_the_same_time.md)
   - [Moral lines should never be drawn along class lines. This is a sacred value for me](./main/moral_lines_should_never_be_drawn_along_class_lines_this_is_a_sacred_value_for_me.md)
   - [Consensual transparency versus non-consensual transparency](./main/consensual_transparency_versus_nonconsensual_transparency.md)
   - [My specific act of violence won't be necessary in a better world](./main/my_specific_act_of_violence_wont_be_necessary_in_a_better_world.md)
   - [Is this moral and is this effective?](./main/is_this_moral_and_is_this_effective.md)
   - [If I was making art to doompill people, here is how I would do it](./main/if_I_was_making_art_to_doompill_people_here_is_how_I_would_do_it.md)
   - [Why are youtube growth curves exponential not superexponential?](./main/why_are_youtube_growth_curves_exponential_not_superexponential.md)
   - [A fundamental problem of internet-driven geopolitics](./main/a_fundamental_problem_of_internet_driven_geopolitics.md)
   - [Losers fighting Losers](./main/losers_fighting_losers.md)
   - [I hate nearly everyone who wants to organise protests](./main/I_hate_nearly_everyone_who_wants_to_organise_protests.md)
   - [Working on ASI risk feels like an obligation, working on a world with zero privacy feels like curiosity](./main/working_on_asi_risk_feels_like_an_obligation_working_on_a_world_with_zero_privacy_feels_like_curiosity.md)
   - [I love transparency, not privacy](./main/I_love_transparency_not_privacy.md)
   - [I have been confused about morality for many years](./main/I_have_been_confused_about_morality_for_many_years.md)
   - [I think I like talking to people with access to social dark matter](./main/I_think_I_like_talking_to_people_with_access_to_social_dark_matter.md)
   - [I hate bad parenting and schooling](./main/I_hate_bad_parenting_and_schooling.md)
   - [Maybe timeless morality is not possible](./main/maybe_timeless_morality_is_not_possible.md)
   - [I want to surround myself with people who are transparent in public](./main/I_want_to_surround_myself_with_people_who_are_transparent_in_public.md)
   - [Redaction policies are boring](./main/redaction_policies_are_boring.md)
	 - [How much of curiosity is status-seeking?](./main/how_much_of_curiosity_is_status_seeking.md)
   - [Universe death clock](./main/universe_death_clock.md)
   - [Every ideology <strike>is retarded</strike> ... makes simplifying assumptions about human nature](./main/every_ideology_makes_simplifying_assumptions_about_human_nature.md)
   - [This will never get better on its own](./main/this_will_never_get_better_on_its_own.md)
   - [Should I type cold messages slowly?](./main/should_I_type_cold_messages_slowly.md)
   - [Make art?](./main/make_art.md)
   - [Skyscrapers, is that it?](./main/skyscrapers_is_that_it.md)
   - [Email everyone](./main/email_everyone.md)
   - [Adversarial communication norms](./main/adversarial_communication_norms.md)
   - [Would I kill my friend if they plan to kill me first out of ignorance?](./main/would_I_kill_my_friend_if_they_plan_to_kill_me_first_out_of_ignorance.md)
   - [My values seem to be honesty and violence](./main/my_values_seem_to_be_honesty_and_violence.md)
   - [Optimal moral strategy is to think you are altruistic](./main/optimal_moral_strategy_is_to_think_you_are_altruistic.md)
   - [Should I make a failed assassination attempt?](./main/should_I_make_a_failed_assassination_attempt.md)
   - [Yet another dump of confusion around my morality](./main/yet_another_dump_of_confusion_around_my_morality.md)
   - [Dominance over the outgroup, prestige within the ingroup?](./main/dominance_over_the_outgroup_prestige_within_the_ingroup.md)
   - [Never say "impossible", always say "my current guess is this is bad ROI on my time"](./main/never_say_impossible_always_say_my_current_guess_is_this_is_bad_ROI_on_my_time.md)
   - [How does thinking about my morality cash out into real world actions as of 2026-03-05](./main/how_does_thinking_about_my_morality.md)
   - [Outputs are not root causes](./main/outputs_are_not_root_causes.md)
   - [Is my interest in fixing ASI risk out of self-interest or altruism?](./main/is_my_interest_in_fixing_asi_risk_out_of_self_interest_or_altruism.md)
   - [Productive versus unproductive nerd snipes](./main/productive_versus_unproductive_nerd_snipes.md)
   - [I want to see more violence and bloodshed](./main/I_want_to_see_more_violence_and_bloodshed.md)
   - [Psychological warfare and ASI risk](./main/psychological_warfare_and_asi_risk.md)
   - [Grim resolve, and art](./main/grim_resolve_and_art.md)
   - [Preparing for war before the world knows it is necessary](./main/preparing_for_war_before_the_world_knows_it_is_necessary.md)
   - [Self-fulfilling prophecies only work on brainless people](./main/self_fulfilling_prophecies_only_work_on_brainless_people.md)
   - [Morality as identity, and why I want to lower my morals on purpose](./main/morality_as_identity.md)
   - [gpt-5 Kapil Gupta advice (copy-pasted)](./main/gpt5_kapil_gupta_advice_copy_pasted.md)
   - [All my problems summarised yet again, in simple words](./main/all_my_problems_summarised_yet_again_in_simple_words.md)
   - [Unhappiness since 2023](./main/unhappiness_since_2023.md)
   - [On judging people, general version](./main/on_judging_people_general_version.md)
   - [I am violent because you are retarded](./main/I_am_violent_because_you_are_retarded.md)
   - [My comment on Alexey Guzey's post](./main/my_comment_on_alexey_guzeys_post.md)
   - [I don't think I am being paranoid](./main/I_dont_think_I_am_being_paranoid.md)
   - [Maybe I should pre-commit to killing atleast one person?](./main/maybe_I_should_precommit_to_killing_atleast_one_person.md)
   - [Particle colliders for human morality](./main/particle_colliders_for_human_morality.md)
   - [TLP seems to agree with some of my framings](./main/tlp_seems_to_agree_with_some_of_my_framings.md)
   - [Everything is so deeply entangled](./main/everything_is_so_deeply_entangled.md)
   - [Pre-conditional versus post-conditional love](./main/preconditional_versus_postconditional_love.md)
   - [I don't want to live in a dead world](./main/I_dont_want_to_live_in_a_dead_world.md)
   - [Systematic moral blinding](./main/systematic_moral_blinding.md)
 - Interpersonal
   - [All my college friends might die](./main/all_my_college_friends_might_die.md)
   - [Repression](./main/repression.md)
   - [**I don't trust my friends' judgement when it comes to romantic relationships**](./main/I_dont_trust_my_friends_judgement_when_it_comes_to_romantic_relationships.md) - important for me
   - [ASI xrisk and judging others](./main/asi_xrisk_and_judging_others.md)
   - [Reasons I don't have a girlfriend](./main/reasons_I_dont_have_a_girlfriend.md)
   - [I am sad I can't publish my travel notes](./main/I_am_sad_I_cant_publish_my_travel_notes.md)
   - [Dating and status games, more notes](./main/dating_and_status_games_more_notes.md)
   - [Median number of partners is lower in India](./main/median_number_of_partners_is_lower_in_india.md)
   - [Parenting](./main/parenting.md)
   - [Did Aaron Swartz commit suicide because of his girlfriend?](./main/did_aaron_swartz_commit_suicide_because_of_his_girlfriend.md)
   - [Do I even have spare atention for a partner, lol](./main/do_I_even_have_spare_attention_for_a_partner_lol.md)
   - [In-person beats online, for trust-building](./main/inperson_beats_online_for_trust_building.md)
   - [More ramblings on who I think I wanna date](./main/more_ramblings_on_who_I_think_I_wanna_date.md)
   - [Minimalism is a status game](./main/minimalism_is_a_status_game.md)
   - [I'm frustrated with women who regret the casual sex they have](./main/Im_frustrated_with_women_who_regret_the_casual_sex_they_have.md)
   - [I like Jacob Falcovich's blog on dating](./main/I_like_jacob_falcovichs_blog_on_dating.md)
   - [I don't think I am a good fit for most women](./main/I_dont_think_I_am_a_good_fit_for_most_women.md)
   - [Unconditional love feels better but makes you powerless](./main/unconditional_love_feels_better_but_makes_you_powerless.md)
   - [Being ignored doesn't mean being disliked](./main/being_ignored_doesnt_mean_being_disliked.md)
   - [I dislike dating as a status game](./main/I_dislike_dating_as_status_game.md)
   - [Why I am polyamorous](./main/why_I_am_polyamorous.md)
   - [What is love?](./main/what_is_love.md)
   - [Judging people with 10 lakh INR](./main/judging_people_with_10_lakh_inr.md)
   - [Useless people](./main/useless_people.md)
 - Self
   - [I am learning fast actually](./main/I_am_learning_fast_actually.md)
   - [My fear of AI is mostly selfish](./main/my_fear_of_ai_is_mostly_selfish.md)
   - [Timelock for substance use](./main/timelock_substance_use.md)
   - [Minimalism helps me think longterm](./main/minimalism_helps_me_think_longterm.md)
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**Note to Self**
 - **Switch off your mind sims when you write here. Switch on your mind sims when writing professional posts aimed at other target audiences besides yourself. But this personal website is mostly aimed at yourself.**