2026-10-04

# I am again angry

Disclaimer
 - personal
 - target audience - strictly myself

Main
 - During weekend was relatively okay meeting people. Back to work and I am again angry.
 - I again get reminded, oh these people are cowards and idiots, they cannot make long-term life plans. I am high on IQ so everyone looks like an idiot from my pov. I am high on courage (willingness to not be controlled by parents, friends, company, govt, etc) so everyone looks like a coward from my pov. I want to make long-term life plans - for instance I want to get married - and I get reminded oh all the atheist women on hinge are stupid and nobody seems to value getting married.
 - I want to open prediction markets on when all my atheist friends' relationships and marriages will break up. Bet shares of your future networth, to avoid the time discounting issue.
 - Yes, people around you are cowards and idiots, but you can accept this fact without it making you angry. Take deep breath.

Note to future self
 - Don't open this note. Filling your working memory with past instances of being angry just makes you angry yet again.

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2026-10-05

## Update

 - Maybe I should make a second account and collect statistics on this stuff. Like, how many profiles fit this category - `"atheist/agnostic" + "life partner / longterm / longterm open to short" + no filter on mono/poly`?
 - I vaguely suspect that all the atheist women on hinge don't value longterm relationships, but I want to get proper stats before judging like this, ideally. My current profile has already been used too much, I need to create a fresh profile to get stats.
 - Basically ya just scrape entire hinge using a new profile lol
 - **Also, if I ever end up giving a public talk on the whole relationship topic, then having some hard data would be useful.** Like, this is the percentage of atheist women on hinge who actually value longterm, this is the relationship length they predicted they would have, and this is their actual median breakup time. Otherwise it just comes across as some random judgemental guy's opinion. Data is harder to argue against. (It goes the other way too, if the data proves me wrong, I might also undo my judgements.)