2026-05-26

## Update

 - Today was day one of higher intensity of exercise. That felt surprisingly good lol. I precommit to doing atleast 3 days per week for 3 months.
 - I will make notes around 2026-08-31 to see how it went.
 - update - holy fuck I'm actually surprised even 2 hours later the high is still there


2026-05-25

# I still haven't fully fixed sunlight or exercise

Disclaimer
 - personal
 - target audience - strictly myself

Main
 - Fact: I made notes some months back indicating my room is at decent level of sunlight, but far from optimal. I could find a room with much more sunlight.
 - Fact: I made notes some months back indicating I successfully do a bare minimum amount of exercise, but far from optimal. I could increase intensity of exercise.
 - Fact: I still haven't acted on either of these.
 - Why?
   - The sunlight thing is just, I like my room a lot actually. I am happy to have stayed in one place successfully for so long, given I've otherwise been quite nomadic. I am unhappy about the prospect of vacating my room, and shifting yet again.
   - The exercise thing, I don't know. Actually travelling to a gym seems too much work. I could keep weights in my room, yes, it seems way better. Another issue is that I love living in a PG and I hate managing my own kitchen, maid etc, and I am also a bit skeptical of protein shakes.
 - Okay so I have emotional blockers on both of these things, that's why I haven't acted on either.
 - Note to self - actually fix
   - I like my room. I don't want to leave. Leaving actually makes me feel sad. Like, a lot. I have enough things to cry about, I don't want to also have to cry about leaving my room.
   - I think the exercise thing is a lot easier to fix. I will buy some weights today, and purchase the protein stuff today itself. That will itself trigger me into actually acting. Lmao, I think I am already in enough suffering that "go lift some weights" barely even registers as additional suffering, it just feels normal.