2026-07-16

# Don't sleep deprive yourself, go to sleep

Disclaimer
 - personal
 - target audience - strictly myself

Main
 - I changed my hinge profile to something extremely different from my old profile. Part of me is excited to swipe a bit and see how it performs.
 - But also, because I am still feeling somewhat feeling neurotic, I am intentionally choose not to swipe today. Will do so another day.
 - I notice myself wanting to deliberately stay up late and sleep deprive myself. I now know that sleep deprivation is one of the tricks to force myself to be more curious and less resentful of people. (Just like saying using substances previously, or 2 hours of a hobby that requires complete focus, or similar.)
 - Don't deliberately use sleep deprivation in this way, this is not a healthy tactic to keep using so frequently.
 - Good night
 - Will go hug the bear