2026-05-30

# Isolating myself increases neuroticism which degrades my thinking

Disclaimer
 - personal
 - target audience - myself

Main
 - Was just swiping through dating app, and I'm like, wait I could actually date atleast half of these people, it would be an improvement over being alone. It would be a local maxima not a global maxima. But maybe I am fine with that?
 - It's like, my ideal partner is a very narrow set of people. And besides that I'm kind of okay with having a short-term relationship with a pretty wide variety of women I think.
 - I seem to oscillate pretty quickly between "women are great, wtf" and "women are so stupid, wtf"
 - I think a major factor here is that me isolating myself tends to drive up my level of neuroticism, in a way that I find hard to notice when I'm inside of it.
 - It is possible for me to spend ages inside a pure theory loop, progressively isolating myself and increasing neuroticism, without realising that the neuroticism is degrading the quality of the theory.
 - Need to touch grass, or more realistically, touch someone