I don't get pleasure out of random strangers reading what porn I like. I am writing about this as an experiment to test what the boundaries of living in a world with zero privacy are.
Shooting porn is illegal in India but I don't know the legality of discussions around watching porn. Let's hope I don't get into trouble over this post lol
Main
Names of pornstars
I do at this point basically have a memorised list of porn channels, where I know I will get good quality videos finetuned to my taste. Otherwise discovering random videos is a lot more work and I usually don't have time for that.
Incomplete list: JavHD, Stay in Family 3, Moxiefilms, Shea Briar, Anastasia ocean, cap d'adge and other nude beach videos, Ayesha (Luna Silver), Hunter Asia, Aella, Emuyumi couple, Dollscult, Amour Angels especially Sunna, Ersties, Katty West, Little Bailey, subreddit r/gonewild and similar
I have at times searched for porn or deepfakes of actors like Lucy Liu or Selena Gomez, but this was more out of curiosity that to actually enjoy the videos.
Frequency
Almost once a day for basically everyday since teenage. There may have been small gaps like when I fell sick or was withdrawing from SSRIs in teenage or when I ran this nofap experiment once (don't ask lol).
Usually I just spontaneously decide to watch, not plan to watch in advance. Usually 15-30 min session, although it could occasionally be as long as an hour. I tend to prefer just masturbating and moving on with life, especially if I am in the middle of work or similar. This might sound funny but masturbating sometimes genuinely feels like a chore I need to budget time for, just like exercising or brushing my teeth.
Sometimes yes, some other activity in my life did actually make me horny and hence I end up wanting to masturbate so I don't have to sit with that feeling for many hours.
Gender/sexuality
Strong preference for women ofcourse, either straight or bi or solo videos. I don't watch gay porn. Very mild preference for solo videos honestly.
Ethnicities
Mild preference for japanese, chinese, european, eastern european
No strong preference though, I'm pretty sure I've masturbated to videos of almost every major ethnicity.
Some ethnicities have way higher quality videos though, due to legality or culture or similar. For instance, a majority of japanese porn doesn't show women actually enjoying the sex, and I have no idea what the cultural reason is behind that is. Shooting porn in India is illegal so there is very little high quality indian porn available (though the market size is enormous, for anyone who manages to bypass this). US has a lot of professional porn videos and I nowadays increasingly avoid professionally shot videos because again, I can often tell that its acting and nobody is actually enjoying it.
Body/face type
I don't know, this seems actually kinda hard to describe. On one hand, yes there are a few distinct types I'm attracted to. On the other hand, there are many of them and they aren't exactly named with well-known human readable labels. I do wish there existed like, actual datasets and categorisation of face and body types. Ofcourse studying human sexual attraction is one use case but I can think of many other use cases.
Mild preference against big boobs, big dick, fat people
Mild preference for women who look intellectual/nerdy, but this is only one of multiple types I'm into
Mild preference for people who colour a patch of their hair if the colouring actually suits them
Kinks
Strong preference for voyeur, exhibitionist videos, but only sometimes depending on mood
Strong preference for videos where it looks like both people are actually enjoying themselves, not acting for a set. This is quite rare sadly, or maybe I have watched so much porn I now have a pretty good eye for detecting this.
Mild preference for videos around hugging, kissing, etc because see reason above
Mild preference for light BDSM not strong, but only sometimes depending on mood. Mild preference for slapping or edging or bondage
Mild preference for game show videos. In general any concept-based video done well, for example there is this video of a woman being stimulated by a vibrator while reading a book. I crave novelty in my life in general, so ofcourse that also slips into sexual preferences.
Mild preference for people using sex toys
Mild preference against any video labelled "step brother", "step sister" or similar, although it is also kinda easy to ignore.
Age
Strong preference for women in the age group of maybe 18-30, with more preference on the younger side.
Legality
You can judge me all you like but I care very little about legal factors like whether the women are underage or trafficked or being raped in the video or similar. The factor I most care about is whether it Looks like the women are having fun, not whether they are actually having fun. Most of the time, there is no easy way to tell if the video is ethically shot or not, assuming the women are sufficiently good at pretending they are having fun. Sometimes I can enjoy videos even after I know they were unethically shot, a concrete example would be the police interview scene from Basic Instinct.
If there is news that someone's rape video leaked online, my natural reaction is go search for it online. I am slightly less likely to enjoy the video though, if I have explicit knowledge that the person was being raped.
I actually have a mild preference for underage videos (like maybe age 16-18), but honestly this was more of a preference when I was a teenager myself. As a 25 year old myself, I think this preference has reduced. I did at some point try looking for child porn on the dark web, just to see if it is possible to find. For legal reasons, I won't publicly write about whether I found any. If you put in enough effort, you obviously can find it, it's just a question of how much effort you put. I will also say that I'm pretty confident I don't get any pleasure out of watching people below age 14 or so having sex.
I do think this whole state of affairs is not ideal though. I would prefer to live in a utopia where all porn was ethically shot. Good luck building this utopia though. Maybe if you built some browser extension or similar that explicitly flags which videos are likely of trafficking/rape/etc, then I might enjoy watching those videos less. I know websites like pornhub are more aggressive in removing trafficking content, but as a result they are also more aggressive in removing amateur content, and I tend to prefer amateur content over professional as discussed above.
Update
Now that I've finished writing this post, I realise it was surprisingly fun to write this. I am not sure why though.
For starters, this post ended up way longer than I expected.
Also, it seems simultaneous so innocuous yet rule-breaking to write this? I don't know. Like, the real downsides of writing this post are so little yet the perceived downsides are so large? I see very little way anyone can use this information against me to hurt my interests [1], but I can imagine a lot of people reacting socially like "hawww" for violating the taboo against writing this post.
Or okay here's a much simpler hypotheses, I just have positive memories of watching various porn videos so I have positive association of any discussion of them.
I don't actually know, never mind.
Okay here's yet another hypothesis, knowledge of ASI risk has made most of the activities in my life not fun anymore, and watching porn is one of the few activities in my life I do still enjoy. I know how cringe this sounds but it's 100% fact.
[1] Update to the update
I just remembered Assange's rape case. I guess if anyone wants to honeytrap me in future, they now know exactly who to hire for the job. Or what AI girlfriend to create lol. Ideally I would like to be married by then so I'm not too vulnerable to that sort of trap. But aaaa, I don't want to have that discussion in this post, want to end this post on a good note. (But yes, there are non-zero ways I can imagine someone using information like this against my interests too.)
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